So lasting 3 more weeks didn’t quite pan out and I’m currently waiting for my plane back to London Town! Bali wasn’t great and I was in a fairly depressed mood after saying goodbye to Greg for a bit BUT oh my god did Gili come through!!!! A week on Gili T felt like a month and it was AMAZING!!!!! Everything I had hoped and I’m really happy I was able to get out of my funk, meet some insanely awesome people and finish my travels on a high :). I did have the money to travel to October but to be honest I didn’t really know where to go after indo and the places I did consider (Australia, Borneo, Phillipeans) just weren’t doing it for me enough to justify the money and I was just so tired and ready to come home … And knowing I wouldn’t top Gili made my decision to come home even earlier very easy!
Gili T is beautiful, a great night out and gives you a warm fuzzy feeling inside… For me it was a little like a mix of re-living uni & living out ‘The Beach’ in reality! Night time bringing a lot of fun & awesome people and then lazy days on bean bags on the beach!!! Man those bean bags were good 🙂 I will 100% be back next summer…. Who’s with me????
Anyway, you don’t want too much of a good thing and a week on Gili was perfect but it still felt a bit surreal booking the flights which took me a couple of days to do so I could be sure I was doing the right thing. It only really hit me when I said goodbye then a feeling of sadness & fear hit me :/ sad because leaving paradise is well… Sad! Even if you are ready and scared to what I’m coming home to.
I really don’t want to go back straight into my old life and the little ‘box’ I thought my little life fitted into no longer feels like it fits :/ I haven’t worked for 6 months so I’m scared to get back to routine and mundane England in that sense. But I’m sure this is all normal stuff so I’m not too worried and I’m sure once I’m home everything will fall into place.
Despite all that I’m also really happy to get to see all my family (esp that little cutie of a nephew of mine!!!) and friends…. I feel like I’ve been away for years!!!! So much has happened in only 6 months!
So I guess the question I’d be asking if I were you… What have I learnt?
Well here is my current (I’m sure when I get home other things will become clearer) list:
– I am much more relaxed
– I shouldn’t judge people too soon
– I can move outside the box of what I thought my life should be / become
– there is more to life than London!!
– I actually already knew myself and this trip just confirmed a lot of things
– I’m a better/cooler/more worthy person than I gave myself credit for 🙂
Anyway I guess I might do 1 more blog in a few weeks as I’m sure I’ll be feeling totally different (I hope you’re not all bored just yet!) …