Ok this post is going to sound like a proper ‘first world problem’ post but tough shit…
It’s been almost 3 months since I left London in a hurry to get back to my favourite part of the world; Southeast Asia. I have loved discovering more of what this magical place has to offer, and loved even more returning to some of my favourite places.
It feels like home here. It’s now familiar and I know how it works. I even have friends here!
If you have ever travelled you will know that it is exhausting, emotionally & physically. Yes you get to laze on the beach whenever you want, drink a beer at 11am if you want to, or get that third cheap massage of the week (man I love Asia!!), but you are ultimately homeless. You ‘nomad’ it around in hundreds of different hostels, different beds and you never truly relax.
You are also on the go the whole time, wanting to experience everything each place has to offer, so you never really ‘stop’. “You poor thing!” I hear you all say…well yes of course I’d rather be doing this than stuck in an office, but that doesn’t mean I can’t be a bit frazzled.
I’m on a journey here(!!)
I have been for the last year and a half, and I’m both excited and scared to see where I end up…who I end up. I also know know that you need the downs in order to appreciate the ups.
Saying all this I have made a decision. My plan was originally this:
– Travel more of Southeast Asia while I wait for my bf to finish up in London and join me in Thailand where we will live.
I have 3 weeks left till he is supposed to come out to meet me, and I’m supposed to be doing the Philippines. I’ve been in Bali for almost 2 weeks now…no, Ive been in Canggu. I’ve done no travelling. I stopped. I needed to re-charge, but I’m not excited about the Philippines…and well…IT’S THE PHILIPPINES!!!!! and I bloody well should be!
So, after a emotionally turbulent week I’ve decided now is not the right time for me to go to the Philippines, instead…
I’m going home
Not for good, but for a few weeks to really re-charge. To see my family & friends and get ready for what is going to be one of the biggest events in my life…moving abroad.
It’s a bit of an expensive round-trip, and very illogical…but it feels right, and we must follow our hearts if we are to find the right path (sorry for the cheese!!)